Ice Cream
It is a very strange thing to have to measure out your ice cream when you want to treat yourself. Today, I did that for the first time. I could not believe that one serving of ice cream was only 1/2 a cup, which is one full scoop – therefore I could only allow myself two scoops of ice cream! What a difference from one year ago, when I’d gobble down 5 scoops and still be ready for more. The change is visible – over one year ago I was more than twenty pounds heavier.
Overall, the changes I have made in the past year in terms of my diet have really not been all that hard. First I shifted from gorging myself to whatever food was in front of my face to eating normal amounts of food (the first stage of my weight loss), and from that I shifted to a regulated weight-loss diet (the second stage). During the first stage I lost upwards of ten pounds. This change I barely even noticed because it was during a span of about a year (though, when comparing old pictures, the difference is quite obvious). The second stage I began mid-March when I started counting calories daily with the use of Calorie Count. In the two months since, I have lost roughly ten pounds. This is a huge accomplishment considering all I have really done is become more aware of what I eat. I still generally eat what I want, though I have learned to pick healthier choices and control my portions. I haven’t even added any exercise. Really, that’s all there is to it. No South Beach Diet, no low-carb diet, no Weight Watchers. Without any extreme effort (though a moderate amount of effort nonetheless) I have seen the results I was hoping for, and that really pleases me.
While it is strange to measure out my ice cream portions, it is an even stranger feeling to look in the mirror and I actually like my body. I have never been too fond of my physical self, but lately, as my pant size decreases, my self-esteem has been steadily increasing. I feel much healthier and happier and I have more energy. The improvement of my life in the past year astounds me – my school work is more impressive (though it still was before), I am lucky enough to now have a great boyfriend, and now I may finally be pleased with my appearance. The quiet, unsure girl that I was in high school has since disappeared.
Perhaps I am just in a good mood today. Or, perhaps this is a good mood that is here to stay. Even the impending gloom of the next three months (namely, the distance between Scott and I) seems to be slowly brightening. I think the idea of being so distanced and detached from my life at school, which is home to me, is beginning to normalize in my head. This certainly helps to eliminate some stress. It will certainly still be a trying time for me, but maybe it will not be quite as bad as I originally projected in my immediate anxiety upon leaving school.
It is promising that this blog entry is chock full of optimism, something that is usually quite rare for me. Maybe I will treat myself to an extra scoop of ice cream.
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